You Just Don't Get It

Sorry for my absence, I have been very busy this weekend with homework. Today I am going to talk about something that applies not only to me, but to every diabetic everywhere. As a T1D (Type 1 Diabetic), diet soda is a staple in our diet. Besides water is is one of the only drinks we can have without it being full of sugar and affecting our blood sugars for hours later. Through the last six years of my life, I have had a numerous people in my life tell me that diet coke is worse for me than regular soda. That it is full of aspartame and how it will cause cancer or I will die. Well I prefer the chances of drinking the aspartame than going into a coma. I'm going to share an experience I had a few years ago involving a mix up of diet and regular coke.

A few years ago, I was out shopping with my mom and we went to Johnny Rockets for lunch and ordered vanilla Diet Cokes. We finished our meals and continued shopping for the next hour. As I picked out clothes I knew I felt wrong, like something wasn't right. Pushing it to the side, I focused on the clothes in my hand and headed to the dressing room. The feeling only got worse; I felt trapped, like the walls were closing in on me, and I was over heated to the point where I was sweating and panicking. I felt nauseous and had to get out. I grabbed my tester and it read "HI", which indicated a blood sugar over 600 and I needed insulin immediately. After correcting, 3 water bottles and a damp napkin on my forehead, it still would't read on my meter. It just said "HI". It took hours and countless injections to finally bring my blood sugar down. What caused this, was Johnny Rockets had given me regular coke with my meal, and so I wasn't able to give insulin for it. Diet Coke won't kill me, but regular coke almost did. I will take my chances with Diet Coke any day.

I'm Still Here!

Sorry I've been MIA for the last couple of days, I got so busy with school. Today I am going to start off with the day I was diagnosed. It was November 25, 2007 and I remember that night very clearly. I was at home with my Dad watching TV and I felt awful. I was constantly thirsty and losing weight like crazy.  By the fifth trip to the restroom of the hour, and my eighth glass of water, my Dad knew what was going on. He had me check my blood sugar and it wouldn't even read on the meter. A good range to be in is between 70-120 and when it won't read on the meter, that means it is over 600. That was the beginning of my whole world changing. I gave myself my very first shot of insulin that night, and I instantly felt better.

Since that day I have pricked my finger over 28,000 times and given over 15,000 shots. For that, there is no bright side. This disease has brought much dismay into my life. I've had people tell me that I need to eat healthier and lose weight, or that "at least it's not cancer", or people even try to relate to it by telling me they know exactly how I feel. But just because I have diabetes doesn't mean I am fat or need to eat less sugar- sugar is what saves my life on sometimes a daily occasion. Yes I am very grateful I don't have cancer, I still have to live with this disease 24/7 and I will never ever get a break for the rest of my life until there is a cure. So I am adding to the 28,000 finger pricks, and that number may double by the time the cure comes. Life isn't always fair, but it is my life and I must keep fighting the battle.

The picture on the LEFT is me just weeks after diagnosis, and the one on the RIGHT is me just this past year

My Silver Lining

I know that yesterday my post was about camp, but I feel like camp is such a big deal that it deserves another post.

Every day with Type 1 Diabetes is a battle, and sometimes you just don't want to fight it anymore. There are days where you want to give up, or where you feel completely alone. But thankfully for me I have my amazing camp family who is so supportive. I can call up any one of them and all I have to say is "Diabetes Sucks." and they wouldn't need any details of what was happening, they just know. These people are as necessary as insulin.. I can't live without them.

Recently I have struggled with having diabetes and how much work it is and all that comes with it, but my best friend/ sister from camp moved to Thousand Oaks and is going to Cal Lu. All I had to do was text her and we had plans that night. There are no words that can explain how happy I am with my fellow diabetics. They are truly the only people on this planet who understand everything. I can tell someone that I feel "high" or "low" and they say something like "Oh I totally know what you feel like, I had a cold last weekend." or "I have had the worst headache for the last few days." And I know they are just trying to be helpful and be nice, but it's hard when you deal with something only you can feel.

Okay- enough with the downer talk. I am gonna give a little shout-out to a certain fellow camp goer who has helped me through a lot of stuff these past few years. Especially this past summer, my dear friend Rachel has helped me through some of my hardest times and she has showered me with love and comfort. I don't think she knows how much it meant to me and that I will never forget our summer of making complete fools of ourselves at flour wars, or dancing to backstreet boys in the kitchen. But most of all, I will never forget how you were there for me whenever I needed you. You are an inspiration to every person and camp and we all love you with everything we have. Love you Rach- you are my hero.

As you can see, camp is very special and we are a family. I cannot wait for summer because I will finally be reunited with everyone. Camp is my silver lining in a disease that can bring so much darkness if you don't have an escape like we all do.

Diabetes Awareness Month

    Today is officially the first day of Diabetes Awareness Month. Ironically I was diagnosed November 25, so I celebrate and help raise awareness for the disease I live with every day. I am going to try and post something every day this month (I'm sorry if I fail). Yesterday was Halloween and with the help of the link I posted awhile back, I woke up for my 1 a.m. check with a blood sugar of 138. Today unfortunately I am sick so my blood sugars are a little but higher, but I'm hoping this will soon pass.

    For the first day of diabetes awareness month, I am going to reflect on an event I went to last weekend with my second family. Camp Conrad Chinnock held it's annual gala which raises thousands of dollars for my home away from home.

   This camp is a safe place for hundreds of Type 1 Diabetics every summer and for a weekend in the winter. Words cannot tell you how much love I have for everyone there. I am no longer a camper, but now a staff member. This past weekend I was able to reconnect with my fellow counselors and even some of my campers. 

    Every year Rocky Wilson, our camp director, tells story about how the flame from one light can fill up an entire room. And when I see how many people come together to help support something so amazing, the room glows. Thank you everyone who has supported either me or camp, I am forever grateful.

"I would look up, and laugh, and love, and lift."

Like Family

Today's post isn't going to be all about diabetes, but it's about someone who has helped me through a lot. My dear "sister" Taylor has been by my side through my best and worst times. I call her my sister even though we are only real family through Christ. She was my savior in some of my darkest hours and I am eternally grateful for my gorgeous friend.

 

She even came all the way from Colorado to see me graduate. There are people who come and go in our lives and there are those who you just know will stay forever. Love you Tay, thanks for everything!

Fooooood

Today at work, one of my co-workers asked me how much insulin I would give for what she was eating and so I got to show her the process of how I use my pump to dose for food. Below is a list of common food we all eat all the time and I'm going to tell you how many carbohydrates are in them and how much I would give:

• In-n-Out cheeseburger with french fries: 93g= 13.3 units
• 1 glass of milk: 12g=1.7 units 
• 2 slices of pepperoni pizza: 68g= 9.7 units
• Banana: 26g= 3.7 units

 This next one is a big deal for me and I want all of you to know exactly why Type 1's drink diet sodas. When you're diabetic all you want is to fit in, and not have to pull out a syringe or your pump just to give insulin for a drink. Not only can it be awkward, but personally, I feel like I shouldn't have to give insulin to quench my thirst.

• 1 bottle of Coca-Cola: 50g= 7.2 units
• 1 bottle of Diet Coke: 0g= 0 units

People always tell me that diet coke is worse for me, or that I shouldn't drink soda all together. But type 1's, we don't have many options like everyone else. A glass of lemonade is 30g, 1 bottle of Lipton Green Tea is 45g. As you can see, most drinks have carbs in them. So the next time someone is drinking a diet soda, please don't be quick to judge us, we are just doing what is best for us :)

Happy October

Hello my wonderful followers,

It is officially October, and Halloween spirit is in the air! Personally, this is one of my all time favorite seasons/holiday of the year. Not just for the dressing up, the candy and the scary movies, but for the weather to start cooling down (hopefully soon) which means lattes in the morning and sweaters all day every day! Though, during this time of year people often ask me "Should you be eating that?" as I snack on a pumpkin shaped peanut butter cup, or a 3 Musketeers bar. The answer I always tell people is: "why not?" As a type 1 diabetic, my food limitations are limited. I don't need to be on a special diet or avoid sugar all together. In fact, avoiding sugar is a horrible idea for a type 1. For halloween, all I have to do is count carbs and make sure I am giving enough insulin for the amount I am eating. Click here to take a look at a list full of candies that was put together for diabetics to make it easier for them to be part of the candy eating fun just like everyone else. I will be posting more this month about different ways diabetics handle the wonderfulness that is the month of October and how to have a safe, yet fun Halloween!